Legendary. (For You)
So everyone out there wants to be remembered for something. Even if it’s the smallest thing, that person could be giving a good portion of their self to be remembered. Do you remember that one time somebody gave you money for an ice cream you couldn’t afford? Do you remember that time you were sad and somebody came up to you and asked you if you were okay? Do you remember when you needed somebody and they showed up for you? These are small generous things people do for each other. They all want to be remembered, and I’m one of those people, I want to be remembered for the many things I do in my life, I want to be legendary.
So what exactly does it mean to legendary? In my mind, that means to be remembered for the important things you did in your life, things that may have impacted others in your life such as your mother, father, brother, sister, significant other, or a friend. I’ve had something on my mind for quite a while, and it’s about how I want to “legendary” to somebody in my life.
She knows who she is, and she knows how I feel about her, and how I always will. The reason I want to be so legendary for her is because I want her to always remember who I am, and never forget. She means the world to me, so I treat her as if she is my world. Every little thing I say to her is true; every little thing I buy for her has purpose, every little kiss has a meaning, every little “I love you” means the world.
The reason I thought of this is because everyone has a past, and everyone will remember that somebody for what they did. There’s a first time for everything, first kiss, first love, first time in the bedroom, first engagement, first marriage, first forever. Everyone will remember his or her first something, and it’s a crazy thing. I have this really weird jealousy thing that burdens me from time to time. I don’t know what it is, and it just seems so wrong to say, but I’m jealous of her firsts. I know it happens, and I can’t change the past, and everything happens for a reason. I know people can have a bad past or a good past, but sometimes I wish I could just change the past, and just be in the right place at the right time, but that’s just not possible.
There are a bunch of firsts that neither of us have experienced, but I have my dreams that I’ll be able to have a lot of firsts with her. I know my jealousy it a little crazy, but it’s just something I have to get off my mind. I hope we can experience that one first together, but all I can do is dream and hope for the best. <3